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Self-Reliance
by Ralph Waldo Emerson
I read the other day some verses written by an
eminent painter which were original and not
conventional. The soul always hears an admonition
in such lines, let the subject be what it may. The
sentiment they instill is of more value than any
thought they may contain. To believe your own
thought, to believe that what is true for you in
your private heart is true for all men, -- that is
genius. Speak your latent conviction, and it shall
be the universal sense; for the inmost in due time
becomes the outmost, and our first thought is
rendered back to us by the trumpets of the Last
Judgment. Familiar as the voice of the mind is to
each, the highest merit we ascribe to Moses, Plato
and Milton is that they set at naught books and
traditions, and spoke not what men, but what
they thought. A man should learn to detect
and watch that gleam of light which flashes across
his mind from within, more than the luster of the
firmament of bards and sages. Yet he dismisses
without notice his thought, because it is his. In
every work of genius we recognize our own rejected
thoughts; they come back to us with a certain
alienated majesty. Great works of art have no more
affecting lesson for us than this. They teach us to
abide by our spontaneous impression with
good-humored inflexibility then most when the whole
cry of voices is on the other side. Else tomorrow a
stranger will say with masterly good sense
precisely what we have thought and felt all the
time, and we shall be forced to take with shame our
own opinion from another.
There is a time in every man's education when he
arrives at the conviction that envy is ignorance;
that imitation is suicide; that he must take
himself for better for worse as his portion; that
though the wide universe is full of good, no kernel
of nourishing corn can come to him through his toil
bestowed on that plot of ground which is given to
him to till. The power which resides in him is new
in nature, and none but he knows what that is which
he can do, nor does he know until he has tried. Not
for nothing one face, one character, one fact,
makes much impression on him, and another none.
This sculpture in the memory is not without
pre-established harmony. The eye was placed where
one ray should fall, that it might testify of that
particular ray. We but half express ourselves, and
are ashamed of that divine idea. which each of us
represents. It may be safely trusted as
proportionate and of good issues, so it be
faithfully imparted, but God will not have his work
made manifest by cowards. A man is relieved and gay
when he has put his heart into his work and done
his best; but what he has said or done otherwise
shall give him no peace. It is a deliverance which
does not deliver. In the attempt his genius deserts
him, no muse befriends; no invention, no hope.
Trust thyself: every heart vibrates to that iron
string. Accept the place the divine providence has
found for you, the society of your contemporaries,
the connection of events. Great men have always
done so, and confided themselves childlike to the
genius of their age, betraying their perception
that the absolutely trustworthy was seated at their
heart, working through their hands, predominating
in all their being. And we are now men, and must
accept in the highest mind the same transcendent
destiny; and not minors and invalids in a protected
corner, not cowards fleeing before a revolution,
but guides, redeemers and benefactors, obeying the
Almighty effort and advancing on Chaos and the
Dark.
What pretty oracles nature yields us on this
text in the face and behavior of children, babes,
and even brutes! That divided and rebel mind, that
distrust of a sentiment because our arithmetic has
computed the strength and means opposed to our
purpose, these have not. Their mind being whole,
their eye is as yet unconquered, and when we look
in their faces we are disconcerted. Infancy
conforms to nobody; all conform to it; so that one
babe commonly makes four or five out of the adults
who prattle and play to it. So God has armed youth
and puberty and manhood no less with its own
piquancy and charm, and made it enviable and
gracious and its claims not to be put by, if it
will stand by itself. Do not think the youth has no
force, because he cannot speak to you and me. Hark!
in the next room his voice is sufficiently clear
and emphatic. It seems he knows how to speak to his
contemporaries. Bashful or bold then, he will know
how to make us seniors very unnecessary.
The nonchalance of boys who are sure of a
dinner, and would disdain as much as a lord to do
or say aught to conciliate one, is the healthy
attitude of human nature. A boy is in the parlor
what the pit is in the playhouse; independent,
irresponsible, looking out from his corner on such
people and facts as pass by, he tries and sentences
them on their merits, in the swift, summary way of
boys, as good, bad, interesting, silly, eloquent,
troublesome. He cumbers himself never about
consequences, about interests; he gives an
independent, genuine verdict. You must court him;
he does not court you. But the man is as it were
clapped into jail by his consciousness. As soon as
he has once acted or spoken with eclat he is
a committed person, watched by the sympathy or the
hatred of hundreds, whose affections must now enter
into his account. There is no Lethe for this. Ah,
that he could pass again into his neutrality! Who
can thus avoid all pledges and, having observed,
observe again from the same unaffected, unbiased,
unbribable, unaffrighted innocence, -- must always
be formidable. He would utter opinions on all
passing affairs, which being seen to be not private
but necessary, would sink like darts into the ear
of men and put them in fear.
These are the voices which we hear in solitude,
but they grow faint and inaudible as we enter into
the world. Society everywhere is in conspiracy
against the manhood of every one of its members.
Society is a joint-stock company, in which the
members agree, for the better securing of his bread
to each shareholder, to surrender the liberty and
culture of the eater. The virtue in most request is
conformity. Self-reliance is its aversion. It loves
not realities and creators, but names and
customs.
Whoso would be a man, must be a nonconformist.
He who would gather immortal palms must not be
hindered by the name of goodness, but must explore
if it be goodness. Nothing is at last sacred but
the integrity of your own mind. Absolve you to
yourself, and you shall have the suffrage of the
world. I remember an answer which when quite young
I was prompted to make to a valued adviser who was
wont to importune me with the dear old doctrines of
the church. On my saying, "What have I to do with
the sacredness of traditions, if I live wholly from
within?" my friend suggested, -- "But these
impulses may be from below, not from above." I
replied, "They do not seem to me to be such; but if
I am the Devil's child, I will live then from the
Devil." No law can be sacred to me but that of my
nature. Good and bad are but names very readily
transferable to that or this; the only right is
what is after my constitution; the only wrong what
is against it. A man is to carry himself in the
presence of all opposition as if everything were
titular and ephemeral but he. I am ashamed to think
how easily we capitulate to badges and names, to
large societies and dead institutions. Every decent
and well-spoken individual affects and sways me
more than is right. I ought to go upright and
vital, and speak the rude truth in all ways.
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The other terror that scares us from self-trust
is- our consistency; a reverence for our past act
or word because the eyes of others have no other
data for computing our orbit than our past acts,
and we are loth to disappoint them.
But why should you keep your head over your
shoulder? Why drag about this corpse of your
memory, lest you contradict somewhat you have
stated in this or that public place? Suppose you
should contradict yourself; what then? It seems to
be a rule of wisdom never to rely on your memory
alone, scarcely even in acts of pure memory, but to
bring the past for judgment into the thousand-eyed
present, and live ever in a new day. In your
metaphysics you have denied personality to the
Deity, yet when the devout motions of the soul
come, yield to them heart and life, though they
should clothe God with shape and color. Leave your
theory, as Joseph his coat in the hand of the
harlot, and flee.
A foolish consistency is the hobgoblin of little
minds, adored by little statesmen and philosophers
and divines. With consistency a great soul has
simply nothing to do. He may as well concern
himself with his shadow on the wall. Speak what you
think now in hard words and tomorrow speak what
tomorrow thinks in hard words again, though it
contradict every thing you said today. -- "Ah, so
you shall be sure to be " misunderstood." -- Is it
so bad then to be misunderstood? Pythagoras was
misunderstood, and Socrates, and Jesus, and Luther,
and Copernicus, and Galileo, and Newton and every
pure and wise spirit that ever took flesh. To be
great is to be misunderstood.
Excerpted from
Self-Reliance, by Ralph Waldo
Emerson
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Self-Reliance
and Other Essays,
by
Ralph Waldo Emerson
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